And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
-'Iris' Goo Goo Dolls

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We went to the beach today. Lots of hugs and kisses. Yummy. It was a full moon out. We sat on the jetty on the beach... we spoke a bit... reached some middle ground.

I say the wrong things sometimes... I react too much sometimes... i need to curb some of that reaction. Just as he says unintentional things that cut sometimes, i do the same - probably more than i realize.

More so... i just over react.

Dad basically gave his consent. Shelli is very pleased. I feel wonderful to know that a parent if not both (yet... cuz mom doesn't know yet officially) knows about "us" and has green lighted it. It doesn't feel like a guilty pleasure... One of my issues was that someone might tell my parents about me and him, before they found out from me... now that they know - i don't care what the public thinks anymore. My parents think we're dating - then we're gonna do things that people who are dating do.

It's that one thing ... you did... that got me trippin
don't wanna tell you what it is.. *wink* oh wait.. thats so serious
its this one thing that got me slippin..
hear voices.. i don't wanna understand

All is well in my existence. There is inner peace once more inside my soul. And i feel deliriously happy once more... I wuv my daddy.

*big smile*
*hugs russo*